Saturday, April 19, 2014

Easter


Today is Easter…a reminder that there is hope in all that is not as is should be…there is resurrection after death….all things will be redeemed...and one day all brokenness will be healed. 

This Easter is timely for me. We’ve had a year of watching Michael in severe pain and not known where it was coming from or what to do about it. We’ve been in and out of hospitals. We’ve watched him try to fit in at schools, on outdoor basketball courts and soccer fields where children are playing, all to no avail. We make life decisions for him without the benefit of hearing what HE wants or what HE would prefer. We see people judge him when his behavior is out of control and not see the sweet guy behind the behavior. This hope of life beyond what we see now is like water to my parched soul. 

When Michael was a baby I watched an interview with a mom who had a child with special needs. Her main statement was “Love is not enough”. Her point was that you have to fight for your child, you have to seek out answers, you have to push and insist that they get what they need, you have to demand a yes when all you hear is no. “Love is not enough”. That has rung in my heart for 19 years and has kept me awake many nights wondering if what I was doing for him was enough…certain that it wasn’t. 

Then Michael’s brother said something to me that changed everything. “Mom, don’t you know that one day a mighty soul will show you off all over heaven and talk about how well you loved him.” His words went straight to my heart and planted a new theme. Love is enough. 

Maybe love IS enough! Don’t get me wrong, I will continue to fight for what my son needs, but now I will fight from a heart that is free and understands that for all that is not, love is.

Love was what drove Christ to a cross. The love of the God of all Creation was what broke the grip of death and set our Savior free. Love is what draws me to this perfect Savior. Love sustains us as we live with broken hearts. And love will get us through. 

Happy Easter. And happy loving!

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